Tuesday, March 30, 2004

trg. today. was. terrible. like by far the worst trg i have EVER had... like we walk into the swimming complex and there is a big sign saying tt some pipe burst and there is no water supply... den we go to the showers and its true! den we go to the pool. and dere is like no movement of water beyond pple moving the water and it is the same temperature as BLOOD. disgusting... like warmups already want to die lah. and den the first set was swimming! i swam SUPER slowly heh. there was this old guy standing at the end of our lane... and he was so SMELLY... like totally stank of sweat lah... just shows... he can sweat in tt SAUNA of a pool... crap haha... ok enough complaining now... im in my nice air con room :)

hmm... ponned maths lect with marcus again today haha hope we dun make a weekly thing man!! but stats is really boring lah. and had chem remedial today and i slept thru the whole thing... everyone hu has insomnia shld try mr chang's chem class... its proven... it made dexter sleep! :) anyway yst was marcus's birthday and we bot him a book... i asked alot of pple to share cos i thot tt not all of them will say yes... but ALL DID! crap haha... so now there is like super alot of pple sharing lah... how embarrassing :p oh wells... nvm...

oh crap lah tml is long and holey day... aunty mag was telling me tt maybe i shld bring some bible study stuff to sch den can do during my breaks and stuff... i want to too! just need to remember to get the bible into my palm den im all set heh. i think 2:7 is qt useful lah... tho its like qt boring sometimes... but frm each lesson i will come back learning something so tts good :) hiahz... i reall feel so discouraged sometimes tho... unanswered prayers and all... but uncle kk was sayign during sermon and uncle vi ming too tt we must like persevere... i want to persevere! just tt its really hard...

hmm i guess alot of pple have been telling me tt i say insensitive things and like qt harsh? yah i think so too... sorry to all the pple u have hurt :) i will try to change... i dunno y i got into this habit... i guess i just became harder during jc? i dunno... must really pray for God to help me... its like saying nasty stuff just comes so naturally to me now :s qt bad lah i guess... just din realise tt it was tt bad... i guess when shella and char told me tt i din reall care so much cos i thot tts the way i always was... btu i guess not haha... oh wells... i will try!!!!

hiahz qt worried abt the girls tem leh. like nats are coming up soon... (quite lah) and the only consistent girls are me and zy :s angele tries i guess but shes like really defensive abt her attendance haha... was like trying to write down all her reasons for not coming in the book just now... and amanda... dunno her lah... actually doreen was qt consistent... but oh wells... we need to beg rachel to swim now :s like qt wad lah... she obviously doesnt really want to... and its like we have to ask her like shes some super pro... i mean shes better than us lah but not THAT good haha... but oh wells... beggers cant be choosers... i am going to study again tml! hope it will be fruitful heh :)

ok now i will learn frm sining and quote somethign frm the blind assassin... i reccomend it to anyone hu appreciates beautiful imagery and poetry!!!
october is my fav month!!

Wild geese fly south, creaking like anguished hinges; along the riverbank the candles of the sumacs burn dull red. It's the first week of October. Season of wollen garments taken out of mothballs; of nocturnal mists and dew and slippery front steps, and late-blooming slugs; of snapdragons having one last fling; of those frilly ornamental pink-and-purple cabbages that never used to exist, but are all over everywhere now
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Was that the beginning, that evening - on the docks of Avilion with the fireworks dazzling the sky? It's hard to know. Beginnings are sudden, but also insidious. They creep up on you sideways, they keep to the shadows, they lurk unrecognized. Then, later, they spring.